Have you been feeling like you can’t take it anymore – Are you thinking like life has dealt you the wrong hand – Does it feel like God has abandoned you and everyone else too? Trust me, I’ve been there and back too many times to count…You’re Not Alone!
1 Corinthians 13:7-8(NLT)
“7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures
through every circumstance. 8 Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and
special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever!”
I was driving home one day after work to meet my husband. Within
the span of 30 minutes, he had called at least ten times to check up on me. He
knew I left at 4pm every day, and if I wasn’t pulling up in the driveway by
4:30pm, I was sure to hear his mouth. I naively thought this was his way of
showing his love. The real truth is that he was so insecure within himself that
it blocked his ability to truly trust me.
At that time in my life, I believed I had a good
relationship with God, but for the life of me I couldn’t understand why He had
allowed me to be married to such an insecure man. The mental and emotional
pressure of having someone on my back every day about my whereabouts was way
too taxing on me…I felt like I couldn’t breathe. I found myself dreading to
come home.
If my husband was home when I arrived, he’d drill me about
my day for the first ten minutes. It became a very tense thing for me because I
had to be so careful not to say anything that would lead to more questions and
accusations. I was always on pins and needles, never knowing if the simplest statement
I’d make would anger him to the point of physically attacking me. Pain, fear,
and insecurity became my companions for the duration of our marriage.
I remember reading the passage in 1Corinthians 13:7-8 which
teaches us about how love behaves. At first, it made me very sad to read this
passage, because I didn’t have this kind of love in my marriage. As I thought
about it more, I became so angry with myself for having married this man, but I
refused to give up hope. Heavenly Father doesn’t stop us from making the
choices we want to make, but He has given us His Word so we can walk in His wisdom
and learn to make better choices.
It took a while, but I began reading more and more of God’s
Word, and did so whenever I found myself in despair. His love kept me going. My
appeal to anyone going through what I described is that you never give up hope
in God through the Lord Jesus Christ. It was only with the help of God that I
made it through an abusive marriage. Know that He will do the same for you. Continue
to pray, and He will give you the strength you need. Never stop believing in
the dream of a life of peace and wholeness. ■
Scripture quotations marked (NLT) are taken from the Holy
Bible, New Living Translation, copyright © 1996. Used by permission of Tyndale
House Publishers, Inc., Wheaton, Illinois 60189. All rights reserved.
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